Helen - England
I had always avoided paying my breasts much attention and for many years did not even wear a bra and am only now appreciating that by ignoring a part of my body that is so integral, I was cutting off the possibility of developing a true relationship with myself. Growing up I was a tomboy and avoided dressing up and make-up because I lacked confidence in my looks and didn’t want to appear to be trying too hard so opted out of doing it at all!
I cultivated a tough exterior and would never admit to feeling hurt or vulnerable. The thought of allowing myself to feel delicate or even fragile was too scary to contemplate.
In recent years I had gradually been increasing the amount of time I spent nurturing myself, moving from the most perfunctory of care routines to enjoying spending time with myself in the mornings and recognising the time I invested in me was well spent but still allowing it to get squeezed out when I got busy. I had started experimenting with the way I dressed and with wearing some make-up but could still feel that there was an element of going through the motions and I still felt disconnected from myself as a woman.
In the last 3 months I have committed to an Esoteric Breast Massage programme with the theme of exploring more of my relationship with myself as a woman and the journey I have been on during this time has been truly amazing.
This programme has supported me to connect to myself as a woman on a much deeper level and in ways that are still unfolding. The professional and loving manner of the practitioner greatly supported me to open up to all that was on offer in this experience and explore with greater honesty the barriers I have put up to allowing myself to just be myself.
I felt the relationship with my practitioner was a true partnership where I was open to exploring whatever came up safe in the knowing that I would not be judged and would always be supported. This allowed for a beautiful blossoming of how I am with myself on a daily basis and affects the way I am in everything.
It feels like I have gone back to basics and have been building a much more solid foundation to support me throughout my life and my EBM programme has been an absolutely key element in this. The comments and compliments I have received recently have been an outward confirmation of the deep changes I can feel within that continue to evolve.