Janine - Australia
Although I’ve been seeing Esoteric Practitioners for many years, it was only recently that I started getting regular Esoteric Breast Massages.
I have struggled with self-esteem and self-worth issues for most of my life, and in later years had developed body issues, experiencing bulimia and then weight gain that I was unable to shift.
My body issues, weight gain and bulimia without doubt stemmed from my lack of self-worth, which at times even felt like an intense hatred or loathing of myself.
To the outside world things looked great and most people would not have guessed that anything was other than rosy; I was in a good marriage, I had a good home, and a reasonable income. I take care of my looks and I dress well, and have good friendships. So why the lack of self-worth then?
Well, if you’ve ever struggled with these kinds of issues you will know that invariably they start in your younger developmental years. Life at home and at school and the choices we make at those times play a great part in how we feel about our self and whether we put a guard up and pretend that everything is rosy . . . when on the inside it is not. For me it wasn’t so much a guard as a great big reinforced triple iron wall.
The esoteric healing sessions have been remarkable in helping me break this down, allowing me to be myself with more ease and truly start to really dig the person I am, bit by bit, I have felt safe to come out and play, however I still seemed to get stuck when it came to acknowledging my worth as a woman. The idea of letting this strength be seen, and fully claiming it, seemed to make me run a mile.
My first EBM session in March this year (2016) was nothing short of game changing. It absolutely blew me away. In that hour I felt a depth and a divine connection that I had not felt before in this life. I walked away with a true understanding at the potential of what is inside me to be and express, this was my first real taste of the depth of worth I can have as a woman.
I have had four EBM sessions now, and with each treatment I allow myself to go deeper, to let my true beauty and joy to reveal itself a bit more. Please do not mistake my use of the words beauty and joy as some hippy trippy representation, I don’t walk out dancing among the flowers, singing to birds and insects, with my hair flying in the wind, (although inside I do feel that way). Rather I leave each session with an incredible strength that holds me with purpose and I feel the uncertainty melting away leaving space to embrace my unique expression as a woman.
At work this means that I have more confidence in my relationships because I can speak to people with a solidness that says, “I know who I am and what I can bring, here it is if you wish to take it”. It means that I can feel when something is true or when it feels off. It means that I am able to discern a true impulse rather than an emotional reaction. It means that if a voice comes into my head that doesn’t come from love, I can shut it down without reacting to it leaving me free to focus my energy on my purpose. These are all being developed and are the basis of my self-worth because in living life in this way I do not get caught up in the drama of self-pitying.
I am so glad that I have started making EBM a regular part of my life, and appreciate the huge shifts they have made for me, my life and the lives of those around me.