Karon - Australia
EBM changed my life in ways I could never have imagined!
Since I was a little girl I felt less than the boys. I felt weaker & incapable of doing things as well as them. I always felt the need to compete & prove to them I was as strong - fast & capable as any boy. I was a real Tom Boy in every way - No Way was I going to wear dresses or skirts & play with 'girls' toys.
I carried this way of thinking into my teens. I wore baggy clothes to hide my womanly curves & found it dreadfully embarrassing that I had developed breasts. I was devastated when I first got my period, I suffered from severe cramps & found it a very traumatic experience to go through every month.
I always chose the very physical & male dominated industries - like gardening/lawn mowing, builders labourer, unit assistant in the film industry (where you drove/set up all the make-up, wardrobe & green room trucks - lifted heavy tables & chairs & worked 16-18hr days) A Boom Operator (holding a very long pole above your head with a heavy mic on the end for long periods of time!) To my current job as a freelance audio technician, where I do a lot of work on outdoor sports events - again a lot of heavy lifting, running & working out in the elements (rain, hail or shine!).
It wasn't until I started having EBM treatments & developing a loving relationship with myself, that I started to aknowledge how hard I was pushing my body and the effect it was having. I was in a pattern of constantly seeking recognition & acceptance from others to feel good enough & because I had always found acceptance & recognition by going into a male way of being/working, I felt this was the only way. Gaining this deep understanding totally blew my mind!
I started to feel & see this pattern in everything I said & did. It started to stand out like a sore thumb in every aspect of my life! I could see how it affected all of my relationships, family, friends, work colleagues to my choice of partners. I couldn't believe that a beautiful treatment like an EBM would have such a huge impact on my life but it has!
I now have a deep understanding & acceptance to why I have been living this way & how I can change it to a more harmonious & loving way of being.
For the first time in my life I can actually feel how amazing it is to be a woman & can appreciate the awesome strength, power & steadiness that we as woman naturally have, it feels beautiful & so effortless.
For me just because I've accepted & embraced being a woman, doesn't mean I now wear high heels & dresses everyday. It's about making more self loving choices in what & how you do things everyday. I no longer compete with the men on a physical level. I've realised it is ok & loving to ask for help when lifting something heavy & I can and should accept the less physical jobs. We are working as a team & even though I can't offer physical strength, I offer strengths in other areas. I can feel now how men & woman complement each other.
I rest & nurture myself more deeply during my period. It's a beautiful time to re-connect with myself & to feel where I may have been pushing or not caring for myself during the last month & since having EBM treatments my period pain has gone & I now have a regular rhythm. I actually don't mind having a period now & can appreciate how amazing a woman's body truly is.
I also take more care in my appearance & wear clothes that show of my womanly curves. I'm not doing this to gain acceptance from others, I'm doing it because it makes me feel good. I am more gentle in everything I do, like closing doors, putting cups down, how I drive, washing myself, brushing my teeth, putting on my makeup etc. I am more loving & gentle in what I say to myself & to others.
The improvements from having EBMs isn't just confined to me & my body. I have also noticed big changes with the guys at work & how they interact with me. Since I have embraced being a woman & no longer go into drive, protection & don't mind receiving help, I've noticed the guys are more warm, caring, considerate & gentle around me. I'm sure this was always the case but now I am allowing myself to feel it & in return make them feel comfortable in expressing it.
It's quite amazing that the qualities I was ashamed of & hid all of my life, are now the qualities I'm respected & admired for. It's crazy to think, I've spent all of life trying to be something I am not, when just being me was enough!
EBMs are so much more than just a massage. They help you to transform your life back into what you know is true. I will be forever grateful to the EBM practitioner & the Esoteric Breast Massage modality for helping me get back to me! It feels absolutely wonderful. I'm sure I will be having EBMs until my last breath.