Monica - England
Yesterday at work I wore a beautiful red dress, funky tights with hearts on them and patent shoes; I felt cheeky, gorgeous and I loved how I felt and what I wore. Nothing remarkable and yet a few years back you would not have caught me dead in a dress -I didn’t understand their purpose and considered them as something beyond me and my understanding. I was a tomboy, one who dressed sensibly in clean, dull, often baggy clothes, and definitely not ones which highlighted me, my body shape and the beautiful curves I have and carry as a woman.
Growing up, I always felt an unease in my body especially as I got older, developed breasts and curves, so I often dressed in ways that hid or down played this, as I didn’t want the attention and any care I did apply to myself and and my body was perfunctory at best. And that outward care applied underneath too, any bras I possessed were plain, ill-fitting and as I later discovered were often the wrong size and fit.
My healing journey began over 10 years ago and a large part of this was learning to acknowledge, embrace and more latterly celebrate the woman I am. Having Esoteric Breast Massages (EBMs) has changed my relationship with me, my body and my breasts - it has allowed me to feel and understand that I am a woman, that I live in a woman’s body and that those things I carry on my chest called breasts are actually a part of me, and not something to be ignored as inconvenient or unwieldy. My breasts are large and were often swollen or sore especially just before and around my period. Having EBMs I began a relationship with my breasts and thus with my body as a woman - I learned to see them as an integral part of my body, and having someone massage them with real tenderness and care allowed me to connect with and feel the deep delicacy and tenderness I carry - I felt precious, I felt a delicacy and grace I did not know I possessed and it moved me deeply and changed everything in how I am with me.
I learned to nurture myself and take greater care of me, and over time my body, my breasts and how I felt about them changed - I lost much of the swelling, and I learned that any soreness I feel is a reflection of how I am living and made adjustments. My dress (both inner and outer) changed, so dresses became something I wear, and beautiful lace, properly fitting bras (and even matching sets!) populated my drawers. I am living and showing a loveliness, a beauty to the world daily, in how I look, dress and carry me, lacy bras and red dresses included! I revel in this and it is a joy.