Soraya - England
Since the age of 15 years old I have always had very heavy, very painful and irregular periods. After visiting my Doctor I was told I needed the contraceptive pill which was supposed to help regulate my period, reduce the pain and make it lighter. After a month or two of being on the pill my period did become more regular though still just as painful.
Every month I took a day or two off from school as the cramps were so painful, I could not stand up without crouching down and having a lot of strong pain killers, to the point where I then felt drowsy and sometimes sick. I accepted this to be the case every month and dreaded having my period.
I remember thinking that if there's something out there one day to stop periods entirely I will have it.
I decided the only way to avoid my period was continue taking the pill non stop without the seven day break. Long term I realised this wasn't the way to do it as my body never had a chance to clear.
I started talking to the right people and did my own research. It was suggested to me that I look at the way I was treating my body. The more I paid attention to my body the more I realised I was always hot and bothered, anxious and easily frustrated. There were more areas in my life which I needed to pay attention to. My sleep pattern, my diet, and the list goes on. It took a few years before I fully realised the importance of taking care of myself.
At 18 I attended a group meeting where the Esoteric Breast Massage was presented. I attended with a work colleague who had been having this treatment and thought it might support me too. At the time it sounded very strange to me and a part of me didn't take it seriously but I went anyway because a part of me was curious. I listened to the speakers and what they both presented made a lot of sense. I was inspired by these women and felt something very powerful from them. I had started to make changes that I was finding really positive to the way I was living after learning about supporting myself with self-care from Universal Medicine presentations.
Having the Esoteric Breast Massage gave me the opportunity to feel how gentle I could be with my body, and in general it allowed me to have far more awareness towards my body.
My first experience of having the Esoteric Breast massage was absolutely divine. I felt completely taken care of and deeply considered.
I had never felt so cared for by a person within the service industry. Thinking about it, I'd never felt so cared for full stop!
During the massage I could feel the hardness around my breasts and the difference in them as the massage went on. I felt lighter, like a weight was being lifted from my chest, my heart felt more open and with the EBM Practitioner's support, my breathing had changed too.
After leaving the clinic I felt very much connected to my body and with that I brought attention to the way I walked away not wanting to disturb the feeling I had. Now I had a marker for what it felt like to have had such tender and nurturing touch. This experience was huge for me as it allowed me to walk away with more presence in my body and more knowledge on self care.
I now massage my own breasts in the same way, I acknowledge and bring much more attention to them lovingly which is not something I could say before having this treatment. I started to take more care in the way I put my bra on in the morning and shortly after, realising that I was wearing the wrong type of bras.
I have never been educated on breasts or the importance of taking care of them.
Growing up I only ever heard women talking about breasts when they were considering breast enlargement surgery, being unhappy with them or the fear of breast cancer. None of which bring attention to breasts positively. I'm now 23 years old and still developing my awareness with my breasts and through the support of having regular sessions this is something I can develop.