Stacey - Australia
My first experience with an Esoteric Breast Massage began when I was still breastfeeding my second child. It was amazing to actually connect with my breasts in a way I have never done before. Instead of worrying how they weren't big enough or how they were seen by men I was guided to become aware of the hard areas, cold areas, even numb areas and it dawned on me how much I really had never connected to my breasts.
This began an ever unfolding nurturing relationship with them which felt somewhat foreign on one level yet so natural on another. Post this session I really didn't know what to do with this new found connection as my whole journey to that day as a woman never included how my breasts were feeling – it wasn’t something that was taught to me or lived by example around me with the women in my life.
With my next few EBMs, which were a few years later post breastfeeding, I couldn't believe the warmth, openness and gorgeousness that I held inside and wasn't letting out. What a delicate and nurturing feeling I had innately. I began to be really honouring of my breasts including being particular with what bra I wore whether it was soft and supportive enough, how I presented my breasts in my clothes, whether I was dressing for me or others and how they were handled by anyone including my husband, when it came to my breasts it had to be honouring. It wasn’t pushed or forced or a rule, it just happened that I wanted this level of honouring.
When I first began these changes it was so different to how I had previously cared for my breasts that it still seemed a bit foreign. My breasts were like this delicate little baby that required attention and nurturing, the way I cared for my children, husband and extended family and friends but had never with myself, let alone my breasts.
I went through a period of excessive lumps that required investigation. A large number of cysts were discovered with no significance medically but they were quite painful and becoming a daily problem for me.
Post several EBM sessions I had a large clearing in my body and the lumps in my breasts cleared significantly. My relationship with my breasts has now extended into them being an important gauge as to how I am being with myself and others in day to day life. If I am being too busy or not consuming the nutrition I require or too rushed and hard on myself and not honouring when I am in need of rest, especially cyclically, I will notice the lumps in my breasts return. What I really love about my relationship with my breasts now is when I am moving in the right direction in life and supporting myself they feel a warm, lovely, open part of the whole of me, not a disconnected, cold, closed, object for anyone and everyone (visually and / or physically).